Hope for the Journey
Today is one of the days where I am finding it difficult in my infertility journey. These days come and go. Some days I am fine & don’t seem to dwell on it much. Other days I find myself consumed by it, & find it difficult to snap out of it. Today is one of those difficult days.
As friends around me announce their pregnancies, prepare for births, or discover that they are going to be parents for the first time, I am excited for them. Really, I am happy that they are experiencing this great blessing. But at the same time, I fight back my emotions of just wanting to burst into tears. It’s bittersweet for me. Those of who have experienced, or may be experiencing, this same journey I find myself on can relate. You feel torn. Happy on one side, and heartbroken on the other side.
I have no idea what God is doing here. I have no clue as to why I haven’t gotten pregnant yet, but I have to keep trusting in Him. God is my only constant in this. My only hope. My refuge. He is where I can go when I can’t even understand how I feel, much less express it. He is my comfort. He is my peace.
I pray for all of you who are walking this same journey. It’s not an easy one, & it’s not one in wish on anyone. But we have a Father who loves us with an incredible love, & as we walk this journey, He walks it with us. Not a step taken is without Him.
He is our hope friends.
Grace & Peace, Jac